The Trust

"For we are God's handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." Ephesians 2:10 (NIV)

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I have graded my own fruitfulness the way a harsh teacher grades a paper, certain I knew exactly how well or badly I was doing, and usually landing on badly.

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But the assessment was never mine to make. It belongs to the Husbandman, who prepared the good works in advance and knows exactly what capacity He built into me for them.

I cannot see the whole plant from inside the branch. Only He can, from outside, with the full plan in view.

I called my self-doubt honesty.

It was me trying to do a job that was never assigned to me, judging fruit only the Gardener is qualified to judge.

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Forgive me for grading myself on a scale that was never mine to hold.

You already know my true capacity.

My only work is to trust You with the assessment.

Spirit of the Husbandman, take the measuring out of my hands and keep it in Yours.

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A Prayer of Thanksgiving

Thank You, Holy Spirit, for an assessment that belongs to You, not to my own harsh judgment.

Thank You for a plan prepared in advance, before I could doubt it.

Teach me to trust Your measure over my own. Amen.

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